I hate, closing the door, and saw an emotional me.
I hate, laying on the bed, with emotional songs accompanied me to fall asleep.
I hate, when I want to pray for better, I want someone to pray for me instead, I find no one.
I hate, when I know it matters, something really matters, I pretend it doesn't matter.
I hate, when I know it matters and my heart can't take it anymore, I still insist to hold the feeling.
Just keep quiet, and just let the tears out,
I will feel better.
The problem is, I'm still holding it.
and it makes me suffer inside badly.
let it out, let the tears out and forget these shits and seek for better hope.
why is it so hard to let it out?
I play games, get tired, I take pics, get sick of it, I play games, i refuse to face it.

but I know I care.
Let. Them. Go.
Please.
You are getting weird.
Yes, I know, I am weird.

Don't judge. I am just, emotional today.

I hate, closing the door, and saw an emotional me.
I hate, laying on the bed, with emotional songs accompanied me to fall asleep.
I hate, when I want to pray for better, I want someone to pray for me instead, I find no one.
I hate, when I know it matters, something really matters, I pretend it doesn't matter.
I hate, when I know it matters and my heart can't take it anymore, I still insist to hold the feeling.
Just keep quiet, and just let the tears out,
I will feel better.
The problem is, I'm still holding it.
and it makes me suffer inside badly.
let it out, let the tears out and forget these shits and seek for better hope.
why is it so hard to let it out?
I play games, get tired, I take pics, get sick of it, I play games, i refuse to face it.

but I know I care.
Let. Them. Go.
Please.
You are getting weird.
Yes, I know, I am weird.

Don't judge. I am just, emotional today.